Should I even be here.

I look at my life and where I am with no real discomfort.  I have no worry for my future or my place here  or even what I waste my time with.  I have no faith outside of the occasional grounded logic that has persevered through my existence.  I believe myself to be true neutral in a world of chaotic ideas, judgements and generations of culture built upon violence.  The world is the world and I could change something, but I prefer not to attempt to alter what is a perfect animal in many ways.  My relationships falter or succeed as needed and only if two people put effort into a situation that they both want to be a part of.  Maybe this is why so many relationships fail so often.  However, I do have free-will, I don't have a fate apart from suffering the possible painful death in my time as many others may, and I certainly am not controlled by a yet unseen force outside of the community I live in, the government, or society as a whole.  So where am I now, should I be here and where does it go?  We shouldn't care what these ultimate questions point to- its a waste of time just living anyway.